The things we learn but are not taught

Life - either a series of tragic successive events with an all embracing dramatic twist or subsequent triumphs over the vicissitudes of fate depending on to whom one was born and natural endowments . I have a problem with time keeping. Its not that i can't keep track of time, anyone can do that with unusual proficiency .Its just that when it comes to being late i don't really care. Ironically the best time keeper i know is my uncle.I mean this guy couldn't be late if suddenly a bomb dropped on his house. So as you can imagine his kids are equally gifted with this paranormal timelyness . Ofcourse this is not constant in that you often find children from broken homes make the best parents but you have to accept its profound effect on the person. An extravagant parent usually has a proud extravagant child. Is this just cause effect worming itself into another aspect of life or just the brutal order of nature that guides our lives. visit

Waking moments

Am a particularly self conscious guy which was really difficult to accept for some reason.perhaps admitting to self invested vanity isn't only ethically wrong but also divinely taboo.in that same line of thinking perhaps i have just typed bullshit . i have always been that kind of guy who just either didnt give; a fuck or invested too much emotion  into a thing .talk of lack of moderation or as the moral fags would put it indisciplined .... That's an insane bundle of laughs but its at this point that i realise it all went to shit a long time ago.
In the spirit of not giving a fuck ,i didnt put insomuch effort in my friendships and the like.always just went with it . Not saying i was a particularly  popular guy which would be incredibly  misleading bt i had it all figured out. Three four years down the road am the awkward teen everyone knows and tends to HI every now and then but doesn't really get.may just be paranoia on an epic scale. But then again perhaps this is just the struggle of a self conscious guy to avoid being irrelevant. Either way i only now just realised life should make sense without any effort being driven in that direction. Our fear shouldn't be so much irrelevance as much as happiness.So on this random thursday morning a day after my mums 49th,a self conscious teen in the middle of no where in this plethora of somewheres and histories finds himself inexplicably drawn to avoid relevance if it means finding himself or in the words of Freud the ego(self). Which is in itself a whole new world.onem0

The Great Beginning

Einstein had a dream,to unify all of classical physics with in a single cosmic theory.To some this may sound like some flawed attempt to merge empirical science with metaphysical essence.It wasn't but it was close.This idea of Jewish German scientist got me thinking, why not.? Why not have a theory that walks the planes of physics,spans the length of religion and circumscribes traditional metaphysics.In tribute to a greatest of minds,this hypothesis I shall call the Unified Cosmic theory.I believe in an all embracing theory of life,the physical and metaphysical great  beyond which is really just a fancy way of me saying all that tickles my fancy. Come with me down this journey into my mind.Or just visit the page every now now and then for my stats counter .